tears

why do we struggle to not let people see us cry

why do we wipe our tears before they have a chance to make their cleansing journey down our cheeks

shame

fear of being known

fear of being weak

tonight I cried

i let my tears fall all the way down my face

my tears gave me the strength to face the things that break my heart

i am stronger

What you get for around $100 a month...

Sight in the dark.
Heat.
Use of the computer.
Use of my hair dryer.
Use of my straightener.
The sound of a fan while I am sleeping.
The sound of my husband's C-pap while I am sleeping.
Cartoons.
Cold milk.
Clean, dry clothes.
Hot food.
A vacuum that does more than decorate the laundry room.
A porch light.
Security.
Did I say my computer, oops, I got my priorities messed up for a second there.
Children who can get up before me.
No worry concerning how many days I am going to have to go without these things.


Ah, the value of electricity.